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Thursday, August 31, 2006
teachers' day~~~well teachers' day is tmr so im wishing all teachers a happy teachers' day in advance!!! haha... i made cards juz now... like din feel like studying... although i think teachers wld be happier if i took the time to study!!
ahwells... last day of school... dun really feel like doing anything!!
haha!! dun care... happy hols, happy mugging and good luck for prelims!! [for j2s].... j1s, mug hard!!!
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Wednesday, August 30, 2006
yepyeps... sch again today... din get back my gp essay today... got back my phys test which i did badly... :'( and then oso... phys mock spa.. which i wrote crappy crap crap for my limitations!! i draw so much and then never collect to mark cos not enough time!!! bleargh...teachers day coming soon!! bleargh.... havent prepared yet.. y i so lazy din go popular today??? whacks myself... okies.. i go chi fan now... later must do chem tutorial 14a!!! :(:(:(
oh wait... i must be optimistic... lol... later must do chem tutorial 14a!!! :D:D:D
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Tuesday, August 29, 2006
schoollll.... bleargh... zhi xu is still optimistic...okok!! school was super fun... chem prac was a 2hr long tutorial in which im sure we learnt a lot right?? yes... okok... then math lecture was the usual super interesting lecture... n tutorial was also very entertaining... i mean, i onli did nothing through out the tutorial... LOL...
and then econs tutorial was quite ok larh... haha... played with this yellow ball thing which is quite gross and oily... bleargh... but learnt quite a bit... ms lee so poor thing... we keep not responding... [well i speak in her class] and then she quite stressed... bleargh...
then phys... which wasnt exactly useful... and then dance.. which was very nice:D:D:D:D
laoshi is such a wonderful and nice person... she said 'hao' to me quite a few times today!!! :D:D:D:D:D soooooo happy:D:D:D lol. i think in gym 4 years received a 'hao' once onli... at most 'hai ke yi' bleargh... haha... so today was soooo super nice... i ban tui zuaned a few times!! like qian and ce... din do hou... lol... but the feeling of accomplishment was soooo super nice!! like never ban tui zuaned properly b4... althoh onli turn 1 round... and not very nice... n onli right leg can... but.. aiyah!!
lol... tmr got phys mock spa and zhi xu is soooo optimistic about that... she is going to ace it [yarh right] okok... go mug and MAYBE i can write a few limitations... bleargh
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Sunday, August 27, 2006
learnt another veryvery shocking fact today... ahwells, why do you pple suddenly dcide to burst it on me??anyway... spoke to my mummy today... i love my mummy!!! she is sooooo soooo understanding and nice and supportive... makes me think of shi shang zhi you mama hao... hehes...
ahhh, took photos of this super cute new stuffed toy doggy i hav... ok, not new liaos... since last fri i think... buts...
ahwells... there it is... hahha!! got a lot but i lazy to upload... this pic is with another stuffed toy doggy... so there's tare doggy and omi... :D bleargh had to so super resize it... now dunnoe whether in proportion or not!!
anyway... zhixu has decided!! her goal in life is to remain optimistic, cheery and let things sort itself... yepsyeps... shall go edit WR all by myself nows... :) [see, i remained cheery abt tt]
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Saturday, August 26, 2006
stressstress
stress
y is life so complicated? these few days really quite like living life in a daze... i dunnoe wat to think. hhmmmmmmm... bleargh. cannot blog abt it osos.... bleargh
dun say liaos...
zhi xu announces tt net loss is still at 2.5 kg... bah! the loss never increase!! bleargh... contradictory but i guess understandable.
gp test today was horror... pls lorh... grade outline and aesthetics then i fail liaos. bah!!
pe slack. take survey then can go... smmore we reached the pe dept dere at 3.40 plus??
y is today such a hot day... i sit here oso can sweat... bleargh
later going out for dinner, w fam frens... i.e. dan4 can1... confirm grow fat...
opened the fridge today n found 2 new boxes of ice cream!! zhixu is so not going to eat. right?? right.
there... rubbishy day
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Friday, August 25, 2006
sometimes, life just seems like a series of knots... that you hav to untie... or mountains and trenches, which you hav to scale or climb out of... erps... suddenly, my life is full of complications... blearghself censorship
self censorship
self censorship
zhi xu is applying self censorship
got tons to say but cannot say on this rubbishy blogspot medium... bleargh... wondering whether i should keep a personal diary... yeps, then can write wat i really want to... which kinda defeats the purpose of keeping a blog. grah...
on a lighter note... ok, maybe a heavier note... my mum's screwing up my diet!!
like, i want to lose weight... i.e. diet = dun eat out of meals... bleargh... at eat healthly during mealtimes
then my mummy went to by bean curd and she say must eat!! then for tmr's breakfast she bought cake!!! grah!!!
ahhhh, so there goes zhixu's -2.5... but 2.5 was ysterdae... todae might hav put back on liaos... but dun dare to weigh... got a lot of pple at home... later they go peep!! bleargh....
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Thursday, August 24, 2006
omgomgomg!! my comp almost crashed logging into blogger... bleargh... so sucky... lyk suddenly got problem, oso dunnoe y, ysterdae i cldnt open windows explorer at all lorhs... yucks...haha!! ysterdae night, when i weighed myself, i put back 1.5 kg liaos... so net loss = 1.5kg... juz now i go weigh again!! wheee!!! i lost 1 kg again... so net loss = 2.5 kg!! lol!!! wahahahaa!! if onli this could continue! hehes, then zhixu will finally be acceptable weight... lols...
bleargh, doing chem tutorial nows, later need to chiong eom n wr!! so grahgrahgrah!!
today, sch cld hav ended at 10 for me, cos cant take pe... so xians. had to wait until 1pm for council room to open so tt i cld return my blazer!!! grrrrrrr... dis entire speech day thing has to wasting a lot of time... waste time queuing up to borrow blazer, super long waiting time b4 the speech day itself, long toks during the speech day itself, n then today... bleargh!!! but not complaining... quite nice to go back to rgs finally!! collected my yrbk tt day but din collect my o lvl cert! bleargh... which means i must go back n collect again soon! :'(
school is STRESSFUL now.. juz heard frm xin ying tt lao shi taught tons of stuff on mondae!! diediedie!! y liddat, got a lot of catch up again... n LOL!! laoshi planning to teach us how to bao tui zuan!! lyk qian ce hou!! this is super amusing... i train for 4.75 years liaos the number of time i cheng gong my bao hou tui zuan is can count with 1 hand one... i wonder how weiweilaoshi [who is infinitely more gentle and patient] can make us all bao tui zuan!!
LOL, ahhh, shud concentrate on chem nows!!
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Wednesday, August 23, 2006
sick at staying at home right nows... so got mc got 1 day... can b considered good, cos finally get to sleep in, but bad also... cos alas!! i miss phys prac, which means must go for make up... blearghanyways... slept from 630 last evening, to 10, wake up for 5 mines to take medicine.. and then slept till 9!! whee.. sleeping marathon...
lol!! i realised tt being sick is a good way to loose weight... lol... din eat tea break, dinner n supper last nite (assuming i usually take all thoses meals) and then wake up this morning!! lost 3kg... lol!! erps... but then start eating again confirm put back all the weight. bleargh
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Saturday, August 19, 2006
saw this on whao's blog n dcided to try it... lol.. dun think it's true... hmmm, im not really a fan for picasso works.. cant really appreciate| Who Should Paint You: Pablo Picasso |
 Your an expressive soul who shows many emotions, with many subtleties Only a master painter could represent your glorious contradictions |
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1) econs lectures: havent read market failure then they start gvt interventn alrr
2) chem: tutorial 12, 13, assignment 12
3) phys: read lecture notes for superposition!!
4) math: mug for the test on mon!!
5) pw: eom and wr draft 3 and soft copy due!!
ahhh, very scary... like behind until very hard to catch up liddat... smmore tmr not say very free... got speech day... grah... and very weird, he qi today was telling me abt zi teng organising gathering for tmr?? a bit rush.. grah, but got soo much work but i want to go for gathering also!! ahhh, yyyy liddat...
very very stressed liaos... y my life so messy all of a sudden??
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Friday, August 18, 2006
arghs... gp test tmr... wondering whether i should read gp notes now or go do math tutorial... i suppose read gp notes... lol, math tutorial i cld do it anytime tmr... or during math tutorial itself....ahh, very tired.. many many nights of not enough sleep this week alrr.. grah... *yawns* n i din exactly fall asleep in school this entire week!! applause pls... haha, almost fell asleep in chem today but i managed to stay awake!! actually, it's not never sleep, but it's still never pay attn cos doing other work or sth liddat... bleargh
haha... today got pple visit our class... like observation... lol!! then keep calling aakriti!! whee... good, good, never call me!! haha, cos never really prepare...
arghs. aching all over from dance ysterdae... even neck oso ache!! haha, but very long never dance liaos, so ysterdae was still a great day!!
ahhh, yucks... h3 math today was irritating... i was busy solving the qns using the most convoluted methods ever and then got simple method never consider!! graahhhhhh!!
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Thursday, August 17, 2006
urghs, today was such a totally rubbish day...1st up... chem quiz... which i so totally screwed up... aiyoh, dunnoe wats happening to me.. ysterdae made a rubbish mistake at phys test n then today quiz oso... u noe wat?? i remembered the beautiful iodoform test equation, and forgot to write the really simple n easy to memorise reagents n conditions... grah!!! must so murder myself... aiyah... this is what happens when you dun study... sighz... so utterly rubbishy
grah. then math lect was juz the usual stuff, quite rubbishy again
pe was yoga... juz smmore usually rubbishy stuff... which made me feel quite rotten cos got stuff tt i cannot do... grah... like squatting and standing up which is so a basic thing then i cannot do. grrrr...
then talk... which made me very irritated... got pple so inconsiderate, rude, bombastic, insolent, rubbishy and
was today very cold? or is there sth wrong with me?? was shivering in the raffles room while pple complained tt it was very hot... and was shivering in the lt3... bah!
dance was fun... very quite depressing at the same time... realised many mistakes which is good. but cannot do certain stuff... like dun1, which is bad. yucks... and then very song1... but wei wei laoshi is super nice... wun scold over things like that... she'll say bcos i very song1, tt's y will do certain things weirdly, then say must change... instead of old coach... like will scold for being song1!!
aiyoh... very stressed now... got pw, math tutorial n gp to prepare!! grah...
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Tuesday, August 15, 2006
arghs... been mugging phys so never come online... lol. therefore never blog. grah... very xian... made a stooooooopid mistake which i shud neva had made... grah!! want to go zhuang qian le...lol... had gathering w all the sec 4 pple yesterdae!! super fun!! haha... chatted abt 501 things and basically juz chatted... aiyah... the sad part was every1 tok until 4get to order ice cream then in the end no mood to eat ice cream!! yucks... haha, i think nikki was quite sad abt tt...
yeps, math h3 today was fun!! was drawing this super cool circle like thingy tt whao juz taught... hehe, then in the end never pay attention... lol... but i can claim that i understand the entire exercise 4.3!! whee, huge achievement...
grah, got back pw wr draft 1 on ysterdae.. was soooo totally screwed up... yucks... ahhh, hav to re-do... gross...
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Sunday, August 13, 2006
lol... i realised ive been applying a lot of self censorship on my blog... cannot mention a lot of things cos scared i offend pple... or scared a lot of other thing... aiyah... quite terribleleads me to the old old long time ago gp essay question we had to do an outline on... "can a blog ever replace a personal diary?"
i dun think so... personal diary can
1) no one will read, write everything i want
2) scribble throw tear at, i sure wun do that to my laptop... lol
3) let some pple read... can control who i want to let read
aiyah... i dunnoe larh.. haha, but blogging has the opposite uses?? sometimes blog to let other pple noe how u feel abt things too, so i guess they serve diff functions??
lol... watching gundam seed anime now:):)
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Saturday, August 12, 2006
lol, today is a friday... and as per fridays... school was slacker... lolstarted off with econs lecture, which is basically the entire 2nd half of the set of notes... and since i was still stuck at page 4 (page 2 if you remove the contents page)... you could probably tell how much i paid attention during the lesson
omg... then 2nd block was econs test... which was crap... din finish at all n i think i wrote crap oso... oh wells... econs was always my deadest subject so i cant really tell the difference i suppose
phys tutorial... gah! the teacher went to catch up with me and finish qn 3 which is the furthest i can go... feel so cheated... i cld simply listen n class n not attempt the qn myself!! grah!
math tutorial... the usual crap... math tutorials are so not effective... do the tutorial at home and stone during the lesson itself... read the 1st book of nana... haha, quite nice... but i so dun intend to collect it... hehe. waiting for the kind soul to get the entire set then i juz kope!! lol...
gp, teacher not here... so read my sister's keeper -- wonderful book that like almost every1 has heard of (but i didnt) and thank you vernus for lending it to me :D:D:D
pe i din pon!! haha, but i din change as well, juz sat there and read on... lol, we (me n xinying) went to find mr michael to get the dance jacket approved and then juz anyhow then approve liaos!! omg... so waste time, went to find him so many times he all not there or busy larh!! poor xinying...
yeps... tt's all for today... feeling quite slack! haha... i shall go watch sm video!!
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Friday, August 11, 2006
ahhh yucks, tmr got econs test... and we still don't know the format... gross... at most juz flunk it i suppose...aiyah... tmr got pw wr draft 1 due!! ahhhh... so stressful, chionging it now... ahhh... i havent do phys tutorial yet oso... diediedie!!!
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Thursday, August 10, 2006
today is national day!! yeps... doesnt feel like national day at all, except that i went out to eat dinner. didnt watch ndp, wanted to, but eat dinner = cannot watch. yucks...yeps, juz watch gundam seed anime, quite nice... haha, but eyes very tired
going to sleep now
zzzzzzzz
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Wednesday, August 09, 2006
today was national day celebrations at school... had a kaiyang(?)'s band performing, mr siva, modern dance and street dance.. the performances quite nice larh, but in the canteen, i think our table was waaaayyyyyyyyy too near the speakers... and thus i had a headachehaha, mr gabriel trevor wee kept visiting us (or maybe not us) at our table!! super amusing... haha!!
then went out for lunch and watched lakehouse
finally... haha! cos last time the rest went to watch without me!! (hmphf!) quite nice, but i have never watched a time-travel sort of movie with that many GAPING loopholes before... haha, but overally quite sweet... hehe, would have been so much better if the guy just died!! but then, guessed the last twist in the plot waayyyyy too early... haha!! so not exactly very fun!
aiyah, a bit moody today... i think i irritated a few people, so sorry... spillover from yesterday! i must cheer up! :D
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Monday, August 07, 2006
i dunnoe why, but i find myself super irritated today. actually, i think i do, but there are sooo many things that irritated me today that i dunnoe wat got me so irritable in the very first place.first thing, chem spa, which i so totally screwed up... couldnt control myself at all but i was already very tired and gross feeling early in the morning and i couldnt control my hands and i think i basically did rubbish during chem spa... lyk not adding drop wise and not getting the end point correct... i think lyk the colour change all wrong, which was ultimately disgusting... then lyk my fingers cannot control then anyhow squeeze which is totally rubbish. so after chem spa, i was alrr feeling a total disgust with how i was feeling today.
then smmore, i was trying not to be irritable and so i tried not to show others i was irritated... so i just smiled, which made other pple joke with me and everything, which made me EVEN more irritated. GAH!
then i didnt dance today, bcos my ankle was even worse today then yesterday. bcos i danced ysterdae. DISGUSTING. argh. then weiweilaoshi didnt come today, which means i collected the form from mdm ong for nothing, and i won't see weiweilaoshi for the entire week
it didnt help that PW is now falling apart bcos none of us actually do work together unless we are trying to chiong work the night before the due date of anything, which is rubbish, cos i think we dont create quality work in that way, although we actually get the work done.
then, i wasted dance, yes, i think i said already, bcos i didnt dance... smmore we had meeting for 5 hours (i conclude i want to choreographe a contemp dance!!) but then now it doesnt even seem appealing to me.
then in the car i was telling my mum i got back my report slip... n i was telling her about my chem n math percentile, onli to be cut in and said "so your physics very bad right?"
and then i was eating in the car and soup SLOPED on me
and then i hav this feeling that some people don't like me. and keep saying stuff about me.
and i dont know wat to do!!
and not the mention that im super behind for dance funds
gross
ultimately
gross
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Saturday, August 05, 2006
well, there's dance tomorrow, i think i can dance liaos, just must be extra careful...to the super nice pple who were concerned when i was sick... thank you!! haha...
to the super nice pple who were concerned when i injured my ankle, thank you too!!
anyway, tmr's dance is for charity, at the national library for the children's aid society (melrose home)... zhu hui n co have to raise a lot of money to be able to profit (got percentage target for fund raising one)... pls go down to support her, buy a heart or a notebook or something:) it will really help a lot... haha... and to all performers, good luck, have fun :)
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Friday, August 04, 2006
i realised that my posts have been shortening ever since i first started... but dun feel lyk writing a lot todays oso...currently having fever (not very high), headache, n rotten ankle(s)...
going to sleep soon... grah...
gp test today was sucky, din noe wat i was writing half the time, then fever plus classroom very stuffy made my entire head feel very hot n headachy... gross!! almost wanted to pull my hair out...
i realised that, my all important running plan is falling into pieces, stoopid floor for making me trip... yucks, then liddat cannot lose weight lehs... grah!
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feeling feverish now... lyk very very very warm... how come?? dun tell me im falling sick... so gross... tmr got GP test smmore! yucks... havent exactly prepared... how to prepare? argh!! y liddat...
falling into depression, falling sick, and falling down (haha)
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Thursday, August 03, 2006
today... was the 1st lesson of our pe elective... yogalates combines the flexibility, meditative and weight loss elements of Yoga, with the muscle strengthening and toning of Pilates... which basically meant that it is supposed to be very useful... but then, quite sha... so far all the moves learn b4... n learn from yoga, not yogalates... so basically i still cant tell the difference between yoga n yogalates...ahhh, was reading gp notes today... fell asleep about 500 times... yucks! ahhh, tmr got eom due!! must chiong tonite.. okies, go eat dinner now... then can zuan xin zuo eom, hopefully wun fall asleep again!
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Wednesday, August 02, 2006
undid my bandage today, yucks!!! super super super swollen... hav no idea why it's so swollen smmore... last time i sprain never so swollen!ah yucks, so gross.. the sinsei say one or two days then can liaos, but then still so swollen, quite scary.. but not so pain now?? i hav no idea izzit bcos i went to spray the thingy or cos it is really not so painful...
argh... very sha... my entire left leg is very suan now, full of lactic acid... i think cos i use it too much these two days... smmore ysterdae when i went to run, i was favouring my right leg oso... grah... hopefully, the sin sei is ke kao n i can dance by sunday!! got performance leh, very scary.. yucks...
eee, i dunnoe why i so tired... fell asleep during chem lecture today... n slept for half the lecture? eee, then got once every1 in class looking at me, almost thought the teacher caught me!! so scary!! haha? smmore ysterdae i slept quite early leh! grrr...
argh... tmr got yogalates... wondering how it will be.. must try to rem to bring pants!! heehee... hnnnn, wondering whether i can do it!!
arghh.... gp notes are soooo super boring!! yucks! lyk i read 30 pages today... tmr must try to digest the other 30 pages.. good thing last year perf task we did sth on medical ethics b4, if not i so wun understand a single thing!! yucks... got gp test on fri... i so think im going to fail larh! gross!!
ahhh, econs case study due on fri too, how come all the subject suddenly dump us with work all together?? yucks!!!
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Tuesday, August 01, 2006
i went to school early this morning, to go jogging, to lose the kgs n kgs of weight i hav upon me...then after changing, i was walking down the steps of specs gal (ok, i admit, i hopped down it)
when the slippery floor made me fall n down went my ankle in a resounding CRACK!!!
but then, i was determined. that the kgs of weight had to be lost...
so after limping around for a while, i started running...
lyk 6 rounds.
around the track.
LOL...
die, very sha, then go for dance every1 scold me for running after twisting my ankle, n not putting ice smmore!! LOL... im quite amazed at my own stupidity sometimes...
went to see a sinsei... n half convinced myself that the sinsei will give my ankle a HUGE twist (ouch) n tada~, it'll be perfectly fine again... i think i watch too much wu xia xiao shuo, cos nth like that happened... all that happened was he place this medicine cloth around my ankle, n bound it... n tell me not to wet it, n gave me sth to make the swelling disappear...
btw, did i show my ankle?? haha... cos my left ankle is swollen still from spraining it earlier this year... but when compared to my right... the left looks totally minute... lyk baby vs monster... LOL.. very sha, the swelling was soo gigantic larh!
haha, then bathing was the next highlight of the day.. cannot wet right?? so my mummy put this plasticky thing meant to wrap food around my ankle... then i put my ankle on the ledge in the toilet.. n started to bathe... which involved reaching for the soap (touching the toes of the foot on the ledge) n rubbing soap on the other leg (touching the toes of the other foot)... which simply meant tt it was torture... so sha!!
yucks... tmr got phys... 2hrs... which means need to do tutorial... shall go chiong now...
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