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Sunday, March 04, 2007
On Pain and Painkillers.I'm taking Naproxen 500mg twice daily when the recommended dosage is 220mg once or twice daily. But since this is what the doctor recommended i suppose this is correct. However, the half-life of Naproxen is 12-15 hours. This effectively means that i have >220mg of Naproxen in my body 24 hours these few days. The gel the doctor provided is also a pain relief i think. So even if my back doesnt hurt these few days, and it hurts mildly sometimes only, i might still be doing something wrongly. Isn't that more dangerous than ever? I mean if it hurt I would know when to stop, if it doesnt I might worsen the situation.
What can I do other than have faith in the doctor?
On Stress and Stress-Relief.
The pile of work to do and also the many many tests next week has been leaving me feeling rather stressed. The burn-out index for me from the burn-out survey we did in class last week was 46. Rather high, but I know someone who has a burn-out index higher than mine. Hmmm...
The danger of burn-out has been preached to me often enough by many many people who are also scared that I will run out of energy sometime soon. True perhaps but I think I have been rather mean and have taken out my frustration on a few close friends, for which I am truly sorry. But I am surviving despite all odds. And I am sort of going at the same pace as all the lectures and tutorials [although I sleep every lecture and don't pay attention every tutorial, which doesnt bode well for the up and coming CTs]. I might not have started mugging for CTs but I AM COPING. Rejoice in that.
Chatting with people online late into the night has become some sort of de-stressing method for me. The only disadvantage to this would be that I would be even more tired in school the next day and hence have reduced productivity. Chatting with someone I haven't chatted with for a long time yesterday made me feel rather relaxed. Although it did mean that i ended up sleeping at 1am.
Crying is another. I am becoming a crybaby this year.
Or finding indulgence in the surroundings, standing at the window late at night yesterday, it feels like the night wind is so refreshing that I could continue doing more work non-stop, I can persevere. However, it was so cold and I was catching a cold that I couldn't stand there forever.
I think music affects my mood too. Listening to depressing music [not exactly depressing but rather nostalgic/enchanting/something which pulls at the strings in my heart] makes me feel very tired and emotionally stressed. I think I don't have any HAPPY music in my library.
Finding irrelevant pictures for flowers last night made me find that i can still appreciate much of the beauty in the world around me. Which made me think of my past ambition of becoming a photographer. Hmm... I wonder how I could feed myself if I went into this line.
But anyway, if you are reading this line I must say I marvel at your endurance in reading all the above irrelevant and disjointed crap I typed up there. Off to lunch and more work. But I'm feeling ok about it really...
Half-empty, half-full. We make the choice.
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